The Permission You Have Always Wanted

Permission is a funny thing.

When I was a child, I was told to always ask for permission before doing things.
But man did this cause some psychological set backs as I grew older.

It got so bad at one point that I knew what I wanted to do and felt like I needed to be given permission by some higher power or authority figure. And boy is that some bs.

Now that being said, I do believe there are some things you should be given permission or license to do.

Like surgery, dental work, or nuclear engineering.
Ya know, the high stake things.

Or even calling yourself a psychiatrist, a orthodontist etc.

These types of licenses are are really not permissions but rather a consensus from a general set of standards that agree you know enough about what you are doing to do it without supervision.

It’s where we feel like we need permission for the little things when we are learning or cultivating our skills.

Like learning & practicing herbalism to help your friends and family.

Or understanding the struggles of mental health and the psyche so you can be a better support system for those around you.

Because of our Western schooling & hierarchy based system, we assume that there is someone who knows better for us than ourselves.

And this is where we have become colonialised and lost touch with our own spiritual sovereignty & self authority.

I use the word colonialised because colonialism was about extracting & exploiting resources, knowledge, and people to serve a small circle of individuals & corporations.

IE - ‘royal families’ and trade companies.
See the West Indies Trade Company and the atrocities they performed in the name of “shareholder value & profit”.

And this is exactly what the existing power structures in our western world do, just in a softer and more agreeable way.

You are living this nearly everyday in the form of your comfy 9-5 job where you may make just enough to live comfortably but not actually feel well enough to pursue your dreams.

Or the way you would rather take a pill with multiple side effects to get rid of minor symptoms than take the time to learn local herbs in your own damn neighborhood that can likely treat the same issue with no side effects.

We trade pushing through resistance and difficulty for comfort & complacency so that we can just get by with our dopamine hits fed to us throughout the day.

Many don’t realize that they are living in this paradigm of self induced slavery before its to late. And typically by when they do realize it, their vitality is at a all time low and don’t have enough life force to ignite the alchemical fires of transformation.

The wake up call that is necessary to understand is that you don’t need permission to follow your interests, your perceived purpose, or your own damn self expression.

And if you do think there is, its likely some troll from highschool who made fun of you or got in your head when you tried to just authentically be yourself. Decades later, its that trauma still cycling in your nuero-pathways like it just happened yesterday.

I know what this is like because I’ve been there.

I remember I was made fun of by my own friends when I had my first kiss to my freshman girlfriend Kayla because they didn’t think she was attractive when I thought she was absolutely beautiful.

Its these types of experiences that cause us to second guess our own intuition, our own authority, our own self sovereignty and then we spend years make decisions based off repressed emotions, trauma, and trying to please someone or something from our past.

So whatever permission you are seeking to follow your path thats between you and God.
You and the universe, you and the spirits, you and whatever you perceive your higher power to be.

The reality is that people will likely accept you more because of your vulnerability and genuine authenticity to share a part of yourself that you thought was “too real” to be visable.

And thats part of the trick of this world, its drowning in illusion so that when something authentic shows up, we think its “too much”.

So go be “too much”.

Go live the live you want to create for yourself.
If its for you, it will happen.

If its part of your destiny you will get there.

And if if it wasn’t and it was just some big grand ego scheme you tricked yourself into, you will learn in a way that would only work for you.

Please remember, there is no manual to your unique lifetime.

There is just other people’s best guesses as to what works based on their own experience.

Let your experience be your own authority and your own permission to do what you want to do.

Oh,

and the meaning to life is 42.

Till next time

-Taylor